Left Alone

You left me alone

Answers which I hate to accept 

When they resound very harsh

But truth is always bitter

With questions dearly familiar,

Most unwelcoming,

Lately though I do own them

Crippled was I

With the restless boredom

Where the crowd is never alone

I was cornered to the last

In the wait, to hear from you

Lips did not open up

Mum and awestruck I kept

In the mysterious warmth

Of confusion of insecurity

A restless sanity of mind

And whirlpool of thoughts

Squeezed in the incommodious

Space of my own body

Took into suspicion much

Your being with me

The present life and beyond

Left alone in the cold outside

With a dream self crafted

That dies every minute now too

Wish I, if you ever could

Bare the courage to say a ‘Yes’

And walk  a few parallel steps

But I was left alone

Ghosts of tomorrow

To get a hold on me

Repeating reflections of today

Laughter so horrifying

Smile to roll down

And cheeks red patched

Dreams of you still

Bang my eardrum hard

Numbness smeared all over

My wrinkled body and soul

Your concern from the good days

To swim before my eyes

Some pleasant memories of past

Now get my woes go green

With your harshest good bye today

I am resting my weep in silence

Never had I dared to ask you

Not to leave, nor could say

Please stay back

But I wish a prayer

In me “you stay forever”

Till my last day, the last breathe

 2014...back then