You left me alone
Answers which I hate to accept
When they resound very harsh
But truth is always bitter
With questions dearly familiar,
Most unwelcoming,
Lately though I do own them
Crippled was I
With the restless boredom
Where the crowd is never alone
I was cornered to the last
In the wait, to hear from you
Lips did not open up
Mum and awestruck I kept
In the mysterious warmth
Of confusion of insecurity
A restless sanity of mind
And whirlpool of thoughts
Squeezed in the incommodious
Space of my own body
Took into suspicion much
Your being with me
The present life and beyond
Left alone in the cold outside
With a dream self crafted
That dies every minute now too
Wish I, if you ever could
Bare the courage to say a ‘Yes’
And walk a few parallel steps
But I was left alone
Ghosts of tomorrow
To get a hold on me
Repeating reflections of today
Laughter so horrifying
Smile to roll down
And cheeks red patched
Dreams of you still
Bang my eardrum hard
Numbness smeared all over
My wrinkled body and soul
Your concern from the good days
To swim before my eyes
Some pleasant memories of past
Now get my woes go green
With your harshest good bye today
I am resting my weep in silence
Never had I dared to ask you
Not to leave, nor could say
Please stay back
But I wish a prayer
In me “you stay forever”
Till my last day, the last breathe
2014...back then
